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About Me Member Surreal Artist natzlovesyou16/Female/Colombia Recent Activity Deviant for 2 Years
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Decades Have Passed

Sun Oct 25, 2009, 7:47 PM
  • Mood: Tearful
  • Listening to: Cars swoosh by
  • Reading: The Jungle Books
  • Watching: -
  • Playing: --
  • Eating: --
  • Drinking: --
Damn, I'm always surprised at how long it's been since I've updated my journal. August 6, 2009.

Well, things are not hectic nor agitated right now, but it just gives me more and more to worry about. College frenzy is right around the corner and I couldn't be less ready for it. I'm not ready to send the applications, I'm not ready for the outcome, I'm not ready to leave my friends, I'm not ready to leave my boyfriend...I'm just, NOT.
I thought I was, I thought I was so ready for this.
Turns out I don't.
Everything's a huge emotional mess.
My mind is ready to leave this shithole behind but my heart isn't. I'm afraid of the friends I'll surely loose, I'm afraid of the things that might change, and there are some things I just wish there was some way I couldn't leave them behind.
It's amazing how some people steal your heart. There really isn't any other way of saying so. They steal your heart and hide away the pieces and it hurts so much just thinking of leaving those pieces behind. Memories and pictures and promises can only do so much, and I can't just sit around and wait to see how things are going to turn out. It drives me crazy. What drives me even more bananas is the fact that I know that I, in fact, do have to wait. There is no other way of knowing.
What I do know is that I have to claw my way into the other people's hearts, those of whom I don't want to loose their love not tonight nor ever. I have to make it my goal to steal a piece of their heart in return. It's ridiculous, everything that goes to my head. But I really do think all of this is essencial.

Next year is going to be a throbbing head and heartache.

Yet, I still look forward to it.

deviantID

It is not Love that I love... just the happiness that comes with it.

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Barranquilla, Colombia
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: S-M ?
  • Print preference: Depends :)
  • Interests: Drawing (especially manga), Painting (mostly oils), Reading my butt off, Movie-watching, Disney !
  • Favourite movie: V for Vendetta, Trainspotting, Peter Pan, Closer
  • Favourite band or musician: My Chemical Romance
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock/Punk/Alternative
  • Favourite artist: So many to choose from...
  • Favourite poet or writer: JK Rowling, Janet Fitch, Ellen Hopkins, Phillip Pulman...on and on...
  • Favourite photographer: Nigel Barker (sp?), J. Baxter
  • Favourite style of art: I like a bit of everything as cliché as it might sound...
  • Operating System: erm, windows XP?
  • MP3 player of choice: Ipod
  • Shell of choice: Sea Shells :)
  • Wallpaper of choice: Audrey Kitching and other models plus my favourite bands
  • Skin of choice: I do like pale skin
  • Favourite game: I'm not much into games...
  • Favourite gaming platform: again, not much into games my love
  • Favourite cartoon character: Too many!
  • Personal Quote: not personal but my favorite, "Ideas are bulletproof"
  • Tools of the Trade: say what?

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Comments


:iconruneshai:
Thanks for the fave :).
:iconnatzlovesyou:
You're welcome dear

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XO and some cookie dough,
NATZ
:heart:'s you
:iconkaminarai:
why thanks darlin'!

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" If you can dream it, you can do it." - Walt Disney
:iconlinadomina:
Thanks for your watch :) :heart:
:iconwolffangs:
Thanks for the fav~!:iconilikeitplz:
:iconnatzlovesyou:
You totally deserved it!

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XO and some cookie dough,
NATZ
:heart:'s you
:iconcharlieray:
your work is beautiful.

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thoughts of you, warm my bones
I'm on the way, I'm nearly home
let's get lost, me and you
an ocean and a rock is nothing to me

Ocean and a Rock, Lisa Hannigan
:iconnatzlovesyou:
Thank you very much. This made me truly happy :hug:

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XO and some cookie dough,
NATZ
:heart:'s you
:iconcharlieray:
it's very much the truth. :) I can't wait to see more of your images!

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thoughts of you, warm my bones
I'm on the way, I'm nearly home
let's get lost, me and you
an ocean and a rock is nothing to me

Ocean and a Rock, Lisa Hannigan
:iconnatzlovesyou:
Aw, thank you! I'm not so sure when I'll get a new batch, I took the last set yesterday while my boyfriend, a couple of friends and I watched a flick. You're welcome to look at the other ones and laugh at my first attempts with photoshop :D

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XO and some cookie dough,
NATZ
:heart:'s you

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